Goodbye (For Now)

These feelings I have for you are so intense, it scares me sometimes. To not be near you physically pains me.

It wasn't supposed to be like this. I had no plans to fall in love. You were just the roommate of a friend's boyfriend.

Funny how nothing ever works like I had planned.

And the craziest part is, you feel the same way.

But now you have to leave. And even though we've never lived in same city, Savannah is a hell of a lot closer than Iraq.

So I sit here feeling sorry for myself. I'll spend the next three months being sad and nervous and lonely. But my life will not change, everything will still be the same. I'll be surrounded by my friends and family. I'll be sleeping in my own comfortable bed. I'll eat in restaurants and go to bars.

You will spend the next three months being sad and nervous and lonely as well, but you'll also be scared. Your life is about to change dramatically. While I'm surrounded by friends and family, you'll be surrounded by other soldiers. While I'm asleep in my bed, you'll be breaking down doors and capturing the ones who threaten our safety.

It's you who should be feeling sorry for yourself. But you don't.

I'm trying my best to put into words how proud I am of you. But I don't think that's possible.

Just know that I am so proud of you and I'll be here waiting for you to come home.